I love You
I love you more than the sun, or the moon, or the stars.
I love you more than anything at all.
And through time these words and feelings will never be erased.
I’ve been reclusive lately. Getting things in order. For awhile, I haven’t felt like I’ve had the energy to make every area of my life quite what I’ve wanted it to be.
So, I’ve been tackling it one bit at a time. Organizing this, paying off that debt. But when I feel like my life isn’t as ordered or in as control as I think it should be, I find a poem like this, written for me, and I realize I’m not doing too badly. Not bad at all.
Rowan turned 11 this week. Light of life, light of my heart, I can still be in awe how much joy she brings into my existence. I am grateful that right now, this part is easy. It is easy to be there for her, to tell her the truth (as I see it), to guide her into how to think for herself. Because in the future, it will be all on her to think through things, consequences, outcomes, how the threads of life coalesce. Make her own determinations, rely on her gut and her logic to form a well-lived life. I just didn’t think it would be this fun.
I’m on Match.com and dating; but having this, a strong relationship with my preteen daughter and knowing that my friends have my back, makes it so much easier. Knowing that I don’t lack. That love will come when it’s time, that appreciating love in all its forms makes it easier to attract what I want. That my life would be enough as it is, but that there’s always room for more – more fun, more joy, more light, more love.
Spring is coming. . . and I cannot wait.