So tonight we had one of our friends over for dinner. I made sort of a disparate meal, cheddar-potato soup made from leftover mashed potatoes, and curried noodles with tofu. And then Leif and I had made pies, he made pumpkin and I made a ginger-apple pie. The food was good, and we sat and talked at the table for awhile, though Rowan had a hard time of it. She wanted to play with our guest, and instead we were being boring grown-ups and talking.
Rowan got some play time in (she showed him the games she knew on the computer) and after we put her to bed we watched a movie. And then after the movie, we sat around and talked some more. We stayed up way too late, but these are the nights I love. Seeing good friends, eating good food. I have always loved having people over, but it’s had more significance lately.
There’s been a shift within me. I left my 20s awhile ago, but now I really feel it. I’m not a girl anymore. I’m borrowing a book called “Summoning the Fates” by Z. Budapest, which talks about the three fates, Urdh, Verdandi, and Skuld (sort of like Maiden, Mother, and Crone). I feel like this year I have come under the domain of Verdandi.
I have more responsibilities than I ever used to have, yet I feel more capable than I ever used to be. It’s a good change, yet different. I’ve been getting together with more of my friends lately, and it’s odd to see how we’re all getting older. Sadly, “older” has a lot of negative connotations, but that’s not how I mean it. Just that we are transitioning into a different phase of our life. I don’t want to go back in time. But I do want lots of nights talking with friends.