The problem with a blog is how truthful and how open do you be? Especially if your life is full of ups and downs, which ones do you document? For me, each day has been different, and I still don’t know which direction I’m heading in, but I’d like to think up.
The job thing–well, it came to a head a week ago. I went in prepared to hand in my resignation, assuming that would be the best all around. After all, I certainly didn’t want to be escorted off campus. We had a lot of discussions, after which we decided to work it out. So I am still at my job. However, in a month I now have another mini review, so I’m not really in the free and clear either.
I wish I could let this all go and be in the past, but while it lingers on, it still has a hold on me. Why am I staying? Because honestly, I don’t want to leave it like this, and if there’s a chance to repair the damage, I would like to. I like the work–technical writing is a good fit for me. So I’m giving it my all this month–and if that doesn’t work, well then I know it’s not a good fit.
And while I’ve been working on my work situation, I am also practicing for a Hafla in May. That’s an informal performance for bellydancers and their friends. Knowing you’re going to perform definitely sharpens the skills. It’s fun but tiring.
I really appreciate all the kind words from friends lately. It’s meant a lot to me.