Today is Iain’s birthday, and I went to see him after class at his usual hangout.  He turns 30 today, and it is his last smoking day.  He quits tomorrow.  I am glad I enjoy his company so much–the more I find out about people, the more I see that every family is different.  Being related by blood does not  necessarily mean one is family.  Sometimes the family we choose has far more impact, but I am glad he is my brother.

I was feeling a little down today as the day started out.  Well, for one thing I tossed my cookies after breakfast and ended up so jittery and wobbly I was amazed I made it to work.  And the rest of the day I felt slightly nauseous.  Stupid really, I ignored one of my triggers and paid the price, ugh.

And the other thing is that I’ve had to put my practice time with my dance troupe on hold.  I have too many things going and a couple of issues that won’t be resolved for another few weeks or so.  I just couldn’t give it my all, so I had to bow out of performing at Triangle Fest.  After regular practice, I left when I would have normally gone to the troupe practice immediately afterward.  😦  I know I made the right decision for right now, but I feel horribly guilty.  It just seems like I do this all the time–two steps forward, one step back.  Progress in never linear for me.

But I was glad to see Iain in good spirits (ha, bad pun) and his friends are pretty nice.  And I was approached about making some kilts at some point.  I haven’t done a sewing project for someone else for awhile, I might be able to take another one on–with breaks for pregnancy, of course.  I was flattered.

And another nice thing is that one of my favorite fan fiction writers has continued her story which is really, really good.  I love a good story, especially one with a favorite anime character of mine, whom I’ve been lusting after since I was 9 or so.  Yeah, I am that geeky.   Hey, I can’t be cool all the time!

Author: ~R

I write about life, people, and the things that interest in me. Which often includes death, sex, friendship, and the future of humanity. I hope for the best in people and I prepare for the worst. But no matter what happens, change is constant and everything will be ok.

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